Fake smile , heart smashed and mend ? thorns are out . D:

how sad .. How long you still want to countiune hurting me ? x.x

Hellohello ,
now in (L) house :D ,
iknow my blog is as good as rotting .
last month and this month , isnt a good nor smooth month for me .
loads of up and downs i have to go thru ,
Brokenrelationship and friendship , ive to tackle ,
especially studies la ,
this month, exam month ,yet im still fooling out there ,coming home late .
though i know i made mistakes, but i dontknow why i still dont change ?! .
-.- stubborn i guess ?
luckly english paper is down !
left listen compre ? , and all the other subjects .
maths paper1 seems to be alright for me ,
but i can predict maths paper 2 will be very fucking diffcult ? :o x: .

ahhh ! , headache uh , just today i nearly fainted for english paper 1 ?
i guess i smoke to much cigg and gulong ? , knn -.- need to stop liao , not addicted but TEMPTED ... dots
hias , like you see the above pic , thts how's my heart look like in the inside .
have been carrying fake smile around all the time .
but somehow my heart take controls of my emotions . D: :@ grr .
oh pleasee , i dontwan the day go pass so fast ,
as soon as you know , one bink oly.. me & romi 5teeeeeen bday ! -.-
plan have not made well yet .
have toplan with him later cos celebrating together ! *winks .
pleasee turn up peoples .
thoose dont turn up , fucckkyouu all hell one by one :D
ohkay i can really post as long as i want , but it will get very bored and im freaking tired .
body hvae been aching the whole morning .
till now only the back hurts alot , and i hardly able to laugh much ,
Pain .. D,: and . it seriously kills ..
hias , i wonder if D. still cares ..
he might say he cares ALOT ! more then his family , but whats the point of saying went all i got is blooddy ignored face from you .
you might not feel tht hurt , as much as i am now . one min my heart got mend up , and thn the next day thorns start cutting thru my heart ,
till i have no choice ..
hias , pain make me feel numb . X.x & restless

alright , enough of posting shall get alil rest then down to slack ! :D

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
dearrss.

Oh and min ! , thankyouverymuch for always being there for me , iloveeyou and ill always cherish you dear , lovee and kisses :D me will be alright and we shall go high asap okay!

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now is 2.12am just got back 1hr ago from lepaking . die , now going home back later and later , then on 17oct will be toning i guess? ,

ah ! so i have to get all my beauty sleep as much as i could .im getting weaker each day .ohh ,, i hope everything settle down D:hias, sorry .byeee